Spring Equinox is the mystery where balance rests in the Mother Earth of equal hours of night to sun light. I ask where is my balance of my life? How am I loving myself this morning? Am I finding a softness to speak to my own heart as I would my own lover? Running my fingers along the insides of my arm noticing the softness of my own skin…

Looking into the mirror I see my sleepy eyes taking in the woman who looks at me… am I appreciating her and the goodness in her heart or do I ignore this for what she has not completed from yesterdays tasks?

Am I in balance to watch myself through this day as I would gently as a child with messed up hair beginning their day opening to the great mystery?

A humming bird flew in front of me yesterday. I was in the park and it flew right in front my nose and just hovered there. I could hear the wings buzzing and it looked into my eyes. I felt as if the Goddess herself stood in front of me taking me in, and I lost my breath.

The glowing green and vibrant pink around its eyes seemed to smile and I realized this is also me looking through the mirror back at me.

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Come and visit the the amazing Redwoods of Memorial Park. Today I take a beautiful drive down the California Route 1 on the coastline from San Francisco. To ride along with the ocean waves is a treat. I feel a sense of calm as we go down the coast breathing in the oceans salt air. Our destination is the Redwoods. This is our place of rejuvenation and replenishment.

We drive down the Pescadero Creek road about eight miles and it is lovely seeing the fields of yellow wild flowers and the new cherry blossoms all blooming. When a breeze comes through the delicate white petals fly into the air like little snowflakes dancing. We get to Memorial park and find ourselves in the Redwoods. There is a mist that sifts through the tree tops keeping us in the mystery of this beautiful place.

There are many trails to hike and also great camping here amongst the Redwoods. What a delight to sleep in these verdant woods. We start to walk on the moist soft earth floor laden with redwood pine. It smells fresh and fecund. It is very quiet with few people. I can hear my own breath flowing through my lungs and out into the mists. We walk with great respect for these old Redwoods that grow only in Norther California and no where else in the world. I feel very blessed by this gift of being with them.

As a branch from one huge tree brushes my arm, I am invited to touch its furry red bark. I feel humbled as I try and wrap my arms around its massive trunk that would take twelve people stretching around to complete the hug! My heart presses against this incredible ancient one. I can feel a presence within the tree itself. I can feel the spirit of this tree. I decide to speak to it. “I ask you giant Redwood, what is the secret of your happiness?”

I hear the old wise Redwood answer me, it says, “My secret of happiness lies in the fact that I am always one with the Mother of us all. She embraces my roots so strongly that I never forget where I am or who I am. My love comes from the essence of the sun’s rays that I drink in through my branches. I stretch so very high in the sky to receive the suns love. My strength comes through my wide trunk joining of earth below and sun above. I am in constant ecstasy of all of this energy flowing through my being!” I ask, “Is this the same for me?” The Redwood says “yes, the Mother Earth loves you too and the sun shines loving golden rays upon your head every day.” I have such gratitude being reminded by this great tree how easy it is to see that I am a part of the All That Is.

I feel such reverence for this ancient Redwood tree and thank it. I hike the trail that winds around to the Pescadero Creek. I walk down to the sweet water winding its way though the woods. I stop with my friend and take in the beauty of the trickling sounds of water over rocks and the crows cawing from the trees above. We decide to give a gift of song to the waters and woods and begin by singing Om Shanti a Hindu prayer. “Om” meaning the sacred sound of the Universe and “Shanti” meaning peace. I sing a high melody with Shanti and my friend complements this a low vibrating Oooommmm. We sing and chant till the crows caw with our song together.

We walk back on the Creek trail to say thank you to this amazing place and for all the new spiritual insights. The Redwoods teach me to receive the love that is here every moment for all of us. I have adoration for the beauty and wisdom of the redwoods here on the California Coast.

A gorgeous day in Point Reyes and I am walking on a sparkling sand beach. This particular beach feels more wild than any other I have walked upon. There is a feeling that not many humans have walked here. I make my connection to the land and ocean as I open my heart by breathing in the incredibly fresh salt air to my lungs. I pull deeper into my heart to feel the energy of reverence here.

The tide runs out but the waves are strong rolling high and crashing with white against this rocky beach. These slate gray jagged rocks are the ones who stand here keeping watch – the guardians of this beach. Cliffs stand behind us rising high with the beautiful crystal veins that run throughout Point Reyes only to show themselves on some of the beaches. A grand appearance of the potent power of this California coastline. We find a place to lay our mexican blanket and rest.

We find ourselves drawn to a huge rock formation jutting out into the ocean on the far end of the beach. We walk there and find a crevice that is a secret passage way. We walk through this tight passage and there is whooshing wind that pushes us through. This wind is so strong I almost fall over. It is moving at a ferocious speed and we are catapulted through the opening to this otherworldly cove. I am surprised to see caves that go into the cliffs that seem forbidden places to go.

I climb on a massive rock formation that goes into the ocean itself. I climb higher and higher and see the sun shining bright in pools of waters left from high tide. The wind is relentless as I climb even higher and see many wisps of white fly into the air and I am unable to make out what this mysterious white is. I think maybe bird feathers? They call to me and I follow them even higher to see what this might be. I wrap my hat close to my head as the wind whips at my face and body. I am not sure how much higher I can go without falling because of the force of this powerful wind.

I reach a precipice and there is a sacred cavern that goes deep down into this rock mountain I have climbed. I stand in great awe as I take in this incredible vision of how the ocean waters have found a small portal in the rocks to collect a cauldron of sea foam spiraling in the center as the Sylphs ~ white wisps of air elementals, dancing in the winds! Syphs disperse the spiraling froth whipped into hundreds of white feathers of seafoam and ride them into the vortex that is created up above to the skies delight! I am intoxicated with this vision and movement of the Sylphs. I am high with ecstasy witnessing the Sylphs in such a scintillating dance of great exuberence!

I feel I have seen the Angels of the Winds itself. I am so honored to have been led here to see for myself a true miracle of the Sylphs’ dance to Mother Nature. This is indeed an incredible moment in my life to even have been allowed into this hidden cove and led to peek into the world of the Fairies of the Winds. I often travel in shamanic journeys to meet them. This has happened in my waking life teaching me that all is happening at the same time, the magical and the everyday. I am renewed by the miracles of Mother Nature and her Faery Realms that tend to her.

I desire to know Mother Earth more and more every day. Today I take a trip back to Kehoe beach in Point Reyes to meet the Devic Spirit who lives in the Mountain Cliff. I have a feeling of tentativeness as to whether I have opened my heart and mind to humbly meet this Nature Spirit of this land. I breath deeply to begin this journey.

As we drive up the windy road there is a red tail hawk flying above to say hello to me. We stop the car and I get out. The red tail hawk is my power animal to guide me in my life and here she is! I say a greeting in return and she continues to circle right over my head five times and I feel her love enter my heart with each gifted circling she offers me. We continue and she follows the car until we reach the hiking trail to the beach and circles one more time to say “you have my blessings!”

This is very special for me to have this to begin my walk to the ancient crystal laden mountain on this beach. We hike quietly hearing the waves get louder and louder as we get closer. The ocean is calm and invigorating, the waves are gently rolling onto the beach like soft caresses kissing the land. The sun is warm on our backs as we drop coats and shoes to feel the sand squishing between toes surrendering to this moment and this gorgeous place on earth.

I am able to see from this distance the crystal veins that run through the cliff where the Devic spirit lives. My whole body feels the energy before we get there. A heightened alertness and a feeling of being watched, acknowledged. We approach with reverence and I lightly touch this cliff to say hello. I wait for a sign to continue, I feel a gentleness but strong energy run through my hands. They tingle as I touch the white milky crystals that run through this mountain. White bones that are the ancient wisdom that runs through Mother Earth herself.

I place my forehead, third eye to connect and pray to the Devic Spirit to know her more, to tell her I come humbled to learn from her the secrets of the Earth Spirits. I do not hear words in return but a yielding to allow me in closer. There is a powerful spot at the center of the mountain cliff, on the sides there lie feet like a sphinx. A little sand dune protects the center opening. I gently climb up feeling the energies intensify and feel the energy almost to strong to endure running through my nervous system. I feel like I might fall as my knees start to shake.

Breath…..I hear, my chest rises and lets go a big sigh. I close my eyes and say to the Devic Spirit ~ I am here to honor you, to heal myself, to heal others, and to send love to the Mother Earth. My hands begin to tingle again and I feel more of an electric current flowing though my body now from head to toes. Alive with the currents of the Earths life force energies directly moving though my synaptic connections all over inside my being. I feel like a light bulb turned on brightly shining all around. This is it I tell myself! This is the meeting with the Devic Spirit that I have come for, asked for, and here I am connecting with the energy of the Devic Spirit.

I kiss the mountains rock and thank the Devic Spirit. I walk back down feeling all has changed for me. I look around me and I see a sparkling crystal rock already lying on the sand waiting for me. I pick it up and hold it to my heart and I can feel my beating in my chest against this heavy crystal rock. It is peach colored as well as the milky white crystal bones. Ah, the peach flesh color feels like me combining with the Devic’s white crystal veins. I feel complete here and give five strands of my hair to the Devic Spirit. I wind my red strands around a rock that juts out and give great gratitude. My DNA in my hair blends my existence with this place, and the Devic Spirit who lives here.

I raise the crystal to the Sun to see. I am forever changed, and a new life begins…..

Sun shines a little more every day as we shift forward to the Mother Earth’s rhythms. I find myself thinking about the day and I see the peaking of the sunlight though the clouds. My friend and I drive quietly together to Point Reyes through the Redwoods, they are my favorite trees that stretch so high. I open my car window and say hellooooo as we drive through them.

It is the Pagan Earth holiday called “Imbolc” today – coming of the new light. The road becomes bumpy as we get closer to the beach through farm land on the California Coast. Black cows, brown cows, spotted cows, cows standing on hills stare at us and chew while we drive past. I can smell the ocean before I see it, freshness in the air and my heart quickens.

We park and begin to walk a winding path in the green grasses out to the beach. In a sense of reverence I look up to the Sun and see there is a Rainbow Circle around the entire Sun! Wow! I am in awe, I take in this magnificence and there is a celebration happening. Celebrating the incredible magic of being alive and connecting to the Universe this way is astounding!



I feel a rush that everything is happening exactly as it is meant to be. All of it is perfect in this moment. I love these gifts of nature that appear to remind me of the happiness of just by being alive and present. I feel humbled by this opening to the All That Is in this Rainbow Circle around the Sun that is so beautiful!

The path through the soft sand dunes leads us to the ocean. She is beautiful with a flock of white storks all just landing. They are huge birds with such nobility. We walk by them with respect. The Kehoe beach has huge cliffs that rise so high to the sky. They are made of different rock and sand formations. Some are smooth and beige in color and other parts more black and brown jagged cliffs. We hike down the beach as far as we can go to where the cliffs meet the waves.

One cliff stands out more that others because it has veins of quartz crystal running through it. My friend and I walk up closer and I feel this particular cliff is actually a part of the Devic kingdom. An energy Spirit that is here to watch over this beach. A guardian if you will, to keep safe this area. I feel this Devic Spirit take me in as I get closer. I ask if I may have a piece of its quartz from the vein that runs through it. “Yes if you can find a piece that yields to you, you may” I hear.

I take my time and find a piece that releases into my hand. I feel very excited and I kiss the mountainous rock cliff and thank the Devic Spirit. We walk on and I hold close this heavy special quartz to my heart. I want to let it cleanse in the ocean waters and place it down so that the waves can wash the dirt away…. a big wave swooshes in with white sea foam.

When this big wave has gone back out, my crystal is gone! I search all of the surrounding area and there is no rock to be seen! I frantically dig into the sand to see if it sank down. Nothing…. why I ask the ocean, why? Why have you taken my beautiful stone? I stand there like a little child who lost their most favorite toy in the world, arms loosely hanging at my sides. I look to my friend for answers, and he says, maybe it just isn’t meant to leave this beach.

I think on his words and realize this is true. I wanted to hold so tightly onto this crystal stone to hold this special moment on Kehoe beach. I come to understand as we start to walk back, that for me to know this wondrous experience, I need to let life flow. Like the ocean waves flow and not hold on so tightly. To know that the love in the Universe is infinite, it will always be here for me and to trust this.

I look up and the Rainbow Circle has been here all day and still is here….

We all think a good person is one who is a giver in many ways. To offer a smile, a prayer, a shoulder to cry on, or sharing our help to those who need it. Often we can become such a giver that we forget to be the receiver as well. It was my birthday this week. A lovely thing to have a birthday that comes round once a year – and to receive the loving birthday wishes and love from all my family and friends has felt overwhelming.

This week I am reminded of how to receive as all the love has come forth for me to breathe in. This is the natural way, breathing in love as I receive the love and breathing out the love, a natural flow like the Mother Oceans waves that rise and fall. Her beautiful waves of white sea water rises up and splashes onto the beach giving of her waters to the land, and then she pulls some of her waters back into the ocean taking a bit of sand and earth with her. There is a natural giving and receiving going on all the time….

This morning my meditation brings me to seeing the Orca Whales! In my shamans meditation I journey into the ocean and meet the Orca whale and receive its healing messages today. I see myself meeting this beautiful beast of the ocean and it is huge! It is so gentle with me as I merge into the deep waters. I feel its love for me and we touch. The skin is smooth and the colors black and white are vast on the massive body of this underwater mammal.

The Orca takes me to the bottom of the sea and shows me a circle made of stones and inside are all plant life of swishing seaweed, crustaceans, coral life and there is a message of understanding I am a part of a community and some I have not yet met. That we are all connected and our souls are working together like the sea plants and animals are all connected by love. Then then the Orca shows me how to enjoy the ecstasy of swimming in the ocean depths. She shows me how the waters lovingly support every move I make as we swim together. Orca tells me that the ocean is made of life giving support for all who live here.

We glide and turn with grace and then propel ourselves up and up and up till we break through the top of the waters edge and fly into the air like birds! Jumping with glee and landing back into the waters having taken an exhilarated breath of air into our lungs. Receiving this element of air to sustain our bodies is also loving energy supporting our lives, whales and humans. How in awe I am of this grand sea mammal who shows me the loving ways of the ocean blue and also the breath we both take together. How connected we all are. How loved we all are by the elements of Air, Water, Earth and Fire and how important it is to receive love, as well as give love.

In the dark time, there is a journey to be had. It is the time when we often need to let go before we can grow anew. Sometimes it is old things we have collected in our rooms of our houses, or ideas of what we thought about ourselves, a pattern of behavior that does not serve a higher purpose. Sometimes it can be a friend who we have loved for many years.

We all have friendships that can come into our lives that lift us up and bring us new exciting things to our lives. I have a friend who plays shakuhachi flute. He has introduced music into my life that I had not known before. We create music together this evening in my home before the fire. Myself on a new instrument called a Caisa drum. We start to play our notes together and I open up to a song of wood gnomes beckoning us into the cairn beneath the oak tree, to see the secrets that lay beneath the earths crust….

On the way down the long staircase made of soft tree roots I meet a tree gnome with a brown nose covered in dirt. He says I need to let go of a friend that has been with me for many years. I tell the gnome my love for her has never waned but, it is true we have grown in different ways. I say a prayer as I go deeper to the earths’ hearth beneath saying the gratitude I have for all we have shared and with love l let her go to her own path. I say, may our lives come together perhaps at a different place and time, but for now, I bid you farewell on your journey. May you have peace, I let you go.

I continue walking and it becomes aglow in the earthen winding stairwell and I see there is a fire here where more tree gnomes all have been waiting for me. Ahh they say, you have arrived! Please partake in this mulberry wine we have made to warm you up! I drink this hearty madder red wine. Time to cast a spell of the heart to bring your spirits up, to spark you up a bit they say. Eight in all are here around the fire in differing attire. Some have the traditional pointed hats of pine green and little overalls made of soft material. They say I came from a long line of Priestesses many, many moons ago.

I see a cauldron over the fire with sweet and bitter smells of nuts, roots and herbs wafting into the air, circling in a spiral of mists. The smell is intoxicating and takes me into a dream state or another place altogether. I see myself in a time of strength wielding the elements of the winds powers and talking to the stars in the sky. They hear me and respond sending powers of light into my eyes as I look up. These are the very olden ways of the Priestess. I have a fury in my eyes as I raise my arms and make an incantation promising to watch over the ways of the Earth all my lifetimes.

At this moment my heart receives all the stars light to my center, I whirl around and around with my dress swishing to my legs movements. Blue and white materials fall, cascading in a rush as I come to a full stop. My arms a conduit to channel the starlight and down into the Earth…. As above so Below, All is connected through the Magic of Light. This is the truth as I feel it in my body gently shaking as the current of Light passes through me and into the Earth.

I hear a soft singing that pulls me gently back to the room where I am sitting with the eight tree gnomes. They look at me with a wide grin on each of their faces knowing where I have been. They have seen the same vision and were there as well. We all join gently swaying to the humming of the songs, the spoken word that I started at the beginning resumes where I am playing my drum and chanting the words to this story that I am telling now. I bid a happy farewell to the tree gnomes and walk back up the winding stairwell of tree roots and brown earth knowing I shall return again. I reach the top of the opening from the oak tree and climb out to where I began.

I now know a part of me I have not seen or known before and I am renewed to the deeper truth of my history, my past life that connects me to my powers of then, to now. To speak to the stars above and channel the energies of Light to the Mother Earth. To know my truth as a Bringer of Light.

Winter Solstice is the darkest night of the year and the shortest hours of sun time to light our way. Going within is what this is all about. Taking time to be inside our hearts to rest to hear what is there. This is a time with less distractions and the dark evenings coming to press in, but opening to the dreamy time. Night time…..

When we let the darkness envelope us we become a part of the womb of possibilities. The Earths’ womb time. When we are in womb of our birth mothers it is very dark here, not much to see but, oh so much is happening in this sea of life’s creation. The womb is just this, the sea of life’s greatest gift of beginnings. Creating a human being! What an amazing thing to be a mother!

Mother Earth has Her womb of winter solstice. This is Her deepest point of holding potential life inside of Her vastness and we are all here inside Her dark womb. What an honor to be inside Mother Earths’ womb and be the seedling resting inside of Her. What are you seeding inside of your own heart this day? This longest, blackest night of the year?

A seed rests below the heavy earths crust. It is the potential of the life of a rose, pine tree, or daisy. It is the potential life of a tree that no one can see, yet it is there. Take some time this evening on the wheels turning of the year to rest and meditate. Please go within your own heart to see what is there. Let your heart present to you what seeds it has been holding for you. What new possibilities are within you?

We are all creators of our lives, our voices, our thoughts, our songs, our poetry that we bring to this life we live. Please take time tonight to honor the Solstice within yourself. What are the seeds inside of you in your dark places that need to be acknowledged? Brought forth to be heard or looked at? It is our place to nurture these seeds with utmost respect. They are the small utterance of deep dreams not known before. Listen. Listen with open ears to the wishes and new ideas within your hearts desires!

Tonight I will lead a ritual to ask everyone to release into the darkness all that no longer serves their highest good. To burn it in the candles flame. To write down anything that stands in way of hearing their hearts desires. To let it burn into the night and allow the songs to flow out of their hearts anew. To let the seedlings of new creations emerge to be seen and heard. To let the little seeds know there is room for this new growth to come forth in a safe nurturing place in our lives.

I invite you to open to the little seeds in your own hearts desires to come forth tonight. To really listen to your heart and let the new ideas, paintings, poems, songs, dances to come forth. Whatever this is for you. Take time tonight and light a candle and begin to breath into your own heart. Close your eyes and gently rest into your soul and listen to yourself breathe. Breathe into your souls light within your heart and ask what would you like to birth forth my Beloved Heart? What can I do to honor you my Beloved Heart? I am here for you whatever you wish to create, I love you my Beloved Heart because you are Me and I am here for you.

I practice the art of shamanic journey which allows me to travel into the past, present or future. I can do this with ease as I walk into the dreamtime….. I begin by lying on my comfy couch where it is quiet and I only hear the birds outside. I no longer need a drum to fly into the shaman time only my desire and off I go as my eyes close gently.

I wish to see into the future of the winter solstice of 2012 ending of the Mayan calender year. I am gently transported into the future of December 21st, 2012. I see myself in a meditation with a group of people sitting in a circle with candles all around us. I open to this moment and I leave the meditation room and I am transported into the womb of the Universe, the center of the Great Mother of the Milky Way. It is very dark and oh so quiet here. No sounds only peace. I ask why it is so dark and I hear from the Spirits who I can not see, that in the dark is the emptiness of all possibilites.



I feel scared of this vast feeling of emptiness, but as I trust and keep letting go of any ego holding, I see myself floating in the black space and it is the womb of the Great Mother in the Milky Way. I am safe here. I find a calmness of this understanding. I float in the soft darkness. I hear to feel the wombs darkness like the soft pelt of the black panther wrapped about my body keeping me warm, safe and loved. I rest taking this in.

As I feel myself weightless and floating I realize that I am very much an intrinsic part of this moment. I am made up of particles of this quantum field of existence. There is no separation between me and this vast space of the center of the Milky Way and all that is around it. It just is. There is nothing for me to figure out as I feel this truth in my self. I ask how the dark is different from the light. I hear from the Spirits that it really is not different that the two are in a weave together showing opposite sides to the same coin. The dark and light are of the same weave but, different expressions of the Manna, or quantum field of possibilities. We are all creative expressions birthed out of this field of possibilities.

I ask the meaning of the December 21st, 2012 opening and I hear it is a beautiful beginning, a celebration of the opening to the vastness of all that is. That we are the unborn children that now birth ourselves forward to become the awakened lotus flowers that have been waiting to sing the songs of creation. We are the ones we have been waiting for as the Hopi Elders have said. Now is the time to open to our brothers and sisters to see who has joined us in the river of life. To rejoice with one another and celebrate the truth of who we are as creators in the vastness of our lives and in our Universe.

There is a rustling of the trees leaves outside my window and I am brought back to this present moment in time full with feelings of loving kindness for myself and all. What a journey life is and to have seen such a beautiful moment in the future has changed everything for me. Everything is different now. My life has new meaning and understanding that all is connected in the most minute and vast ways. We are all a part of this Quantum Field of existence and I have seen it for myself in this shamans journey into the center of the mysterious Milky Way. I am a quantum particle and I fit in with everything!

I saw the Eclipse! I set my alarm and got up at 5:55 am to see the Full Moon Eclipse ~ it had already started but I wanted to see it at the height of alignment. I quickly threw on my coat, hat, and mittens over my cloud print pajamas and went outside into the night. I had been told it would be in the western skies so I took a right on my doorstep and walked towards the ocean. I got to the top of a small hill and looked up to see a big red orange glowing moon. My whole body took a step backwards at the power of this beautiful sight!

The magical alignment of sun, earth and moon ~ a full lunar eclipse. Time slowed down as I began to ask myself what this might mean for me? What is the spiritual understanding about this mystical moment of planetary connection with our star and moon? As I stood on the sidewalk I could see my breath in the cold air contemplating this moment in my life. I opened my heart and felt my connection to this true realization that there is a grand design happening every moment in the Universe. There is no haphazardness in the interconnectedness of all. The Universe, I, We are all a part of this magnificent event of life.

Just as I came to these lovely awakenings within……… a big loud rumbling garbage truck drives up almost in front of me to empty the apartment buildings garbage cans. A man hops out dressed in white overalls to very succinctly clear out the bins. The garbage trucks lights flashing into the orange moon a cacophany of candy red colored sparks, and then the truck finishes its purpose of helping our city stay clean and continues rumbling forwards.

I come back to my magnificent moment of how all is connected and ask myself – what is the synchronicity of me, moon, and the garbage truck? Ahhh….. the joys of being spiritual in a metropolitan city! What am I releasing into the proverbial garbage as I watch this divine designing of the cosmos? I decide to bring this honest moment (I could have left out the garbage truck and kept it more romantic) into my own understanding of the overall mystical events.

I come to the realization it is my releasing of my old identity, that in truth, no longer fits me. It is the part of me that has not felt worthy to be in alignment with my most loving self. My old ego identity who snivels her nose at me and thinks she is unworthy of such powerful moments. Her face dirtied by the wearing of life’s toils. I thank her for all she has done to have brought me to this time, and I bid her farewell. She takes one last look at me and disappears into the night air.

I bring my gaze back to the illuminating red orange full moon eclipse and think to myself, what a wonderful, crazy and exciting time to align with the cosmic energies of me, moon, sun and letting go of the old. I am alive living in this moment as the Full Lunar Eclipse brings me into a heightened awareness that I am not alone, that there is a many layered purpose for this life we live. It is undeniable in these moments of exact mathmatical alighnement of the heavenly bodies that govern our lives, and yes, sometimes the garbage trucks. We are all a part of this wild and crazy grand design!